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Noboru GongenzakaUN: STEADFASTSTANCE
STATUS: Student - Y8
ACCOLADES: - Current Inheritor to the Gongenzaka 'Steadfast Dojo'
- Studying Lycanthropy, Runic Arts, and Law
BIO: Please, call me Gongenzaka- I have attended Daybreak for 2 years, and am currently in year 8! If you are able, please, speak to me in French, or Japanese, as I am still learning English!
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Date: 2019-04-24 02:37 am (UTC)[He's trying to make it sound like it's no big deal. It's just school, it doesn't matter. Gongenzaka sounds sincere, but it's hard to believe, considering how their former conversations tended to go.]
D-do you- I- What I said does make sense to you? You're not just saying it's right because you don't want to...
[He trails off and stares at the wall for a minute, interrupted by a vision... The procession. The curtains on the carriage part to reveal a fox on a rainbow cushion. It screams... and then he screams. It's short, a reflex really, and he covers his mouth quickly. He's probably already freaked Gongenzaka out again, though. This was just such a bad idea.]
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Date: 2019-04-24 02:46 am (UTC)But this time it's clear that it isn't his fault. So Gongenzaka doesn't move toward the other except to stare, and cautiously ask-] ...Are you alright? [he asks honestly.] ...I, the man Gongenzaka, do not know what happened...but... [He swallows, trying to remain calm. There are a few things helping here at least. Toki trailed off- and then Toki screamed- but he also covered himself, and frankly looks as if he didn't want that to happen either.
So...he's missing something. Gongenzaka waits for a moment, for if Toki will explain- but before such explanation can properly come, he speaks again.]
I, the man Gongenzaka, am being entirely honest when I speak to you, [he swears- voice stern but still calm as he nods.] ...And more importantly, I do not lie about such things. So long as there is a chance that you can pass- however minimal you feel it may be, I am willing to pursue it if you are. And I shall do everything I can, to help you.
[.......................................he can't help but ask-] ...Why would you think I would not wish to help, however?
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Date: 2019-04-24 03:01 am (UTC)[But Gongenzaka's already talking again. Apparently, he's being honest, but it still always comes off as placating when someone tells him he has a chance to do well with academic pursuits, in any capacity. Toki's had too many years of failure to believe any of it. He'll just disappoint you, Gongenzaka. But until then, he'll fake enthusiasm for this.]
Okay, then~! It won't be a hard project~!
[And then Gongenzaka asks that and Toki goes straight for the truth before he can stop himself.]
I didn't think you'd want to help because it's a waste of your time to bother with me because you hate me and you think I'm stupid and I make all the wrong decisions that you point out every time we talk!
[Instant regret. He was determined for this conversation with Gongenzaka not to devolve into shouting, but things happen.]
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Date: 2019-04-24 03:06 am (UTC)[Wait]
But.... [Gongenzaka stares in stunned silence- and almost looks as if he's been struck. Yet somehow there is an air of relief, as he shakily points toward himself.]
...I, the man Gongenzaka....thought you hated me..! I thought...
...You truly do not hate me then? No, more importantly- I, the man Gongenzaka, absolutely do not hate you! Nor do I think you stupid! Also, I have been told that it is a poor habit of mine to offer corrections to those I speak with... [...In other words, with regard to the last point presented, Gongenzaka just does that with Everyone.
Gongenzaka's voice had started to rise- but now it grows quiet, so very quiet, and he looks almost pleadingly at the other.]
...but you do not hate me, then? [he breathes, struggling to keep his eyes from watering.]
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Date: 2019-04-24 03:26 am (UTC)[He's not good with any of this, explaining actual feelings.]
And then you were just so upset when I- and I just couldn't explain everything without freaking out! I don't hate you because you're a lycanthrope, I don't! It just took a while to deal with that!
[He's gone off on a tangent, but he'd been trying to tell Gongenzaka that during their last conversation in person, that day in Soleil.]
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Date: 2019-04-24 03:34 am (UTC)[Crying will probably not help here. It will probably make this worse. But unfortunately, Gongenzaka is a very, very emotional person.
So crying is happening, though his words are still honest.] ...I am so relieved..! [he admits, bowing his head. After all- the things Toki was upset about are...well. The things people have sort of pointed out as maybe things he should quit doing. It isn't exactly a hard blow to be reminded about it.] ...I, the man Gongenzaka, had spoken to Yuuya to attempt to perhaps fix my own behavior, but I had assumed...
[To hear that that was the Only thing, and that it wasn't even a Hate-resulting matter however? That's something.] I had thought, 'I cannot fix this'...! So to hear that you do not hate me...to have this chance to work with you in fact..! I am relieved, and even honored to have the chance..!
[He does at least seem to make an attempt to hurriedly curb the tears though, wiping at his eyes lest he scare Toki away in one fell swoop.] It is...truthfully unsurprising, [he admits with a sniff.] ...For someone to be wary or uncertain around 'my kind' as it is... ...For the most part after all, there is a true danger involved! Those such as the ones at my dojo...
....are quite rare. [The tears have stopped by now, and though Gongenzaka's face is rather red he is able to look to Toki with calm again.] ...To have even a chance to prove myself to you is a wondrous thing- I do not say this lightly.
So...if I, the man Gongenzaka, can work with you on this project still, I would be more than happy to.
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Date: 2019-04-24 03:48 am (UTC)You don't have to prove yourself!
[It's less of a shout and more of a screechy attempt at reassurance, because Toki's crying now. Dramatic sobs. Gongenzaka doesn't have to do anything to prove his worth to people just because he's a lycan.]
Of course you can still work on the project!
[Before he even thinks about it, he's moving to hug Gongenzaka; and still crying.]
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Date: 2019-04-24 03:54 am (UTC)(It's fortunately not the case this time)] MNH-!
Then...We shall make certain that this project comes out well..! [he announces, rather abruptly tearing up once again.] I, the man Gongenzaka, swear upon it!!
[If Yuuya could see either of them right now, he would probably be the one slamming a door in their face.] Toki..! [Gongenzaka proclaims.] Let us begin as soon as possible..!
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Date: 2019-04-24 04:06 am (UTC)Yes~! We can start now~!
[He pulls away from Gongenzaka and gathers his discarded notes.]
Okay! So! You research like how to make things magic and whatever and pick some object that doesn't suck and I'll come back and check your work later~! I'm glad we talked again, Gongenzaka~!
[Now he perhaps has a new friend to manipulate into doing schoolwork for him. Excellent.]
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Date: 2019-04-24 04:09 am (UTC)[hey wait a minute-] ...You will be back so we can compare our ideas as well, yes..?
[toki he's not just going to do All of your work dude]
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Date: 2019-04-24 04:13 am (UTC)Of course I'll be back to compare~! I just need a break from research right now~! When do you want to meet!? It's due after the BBC leave!
[He does have a couple ideas, and he may even remember to write them down last minute before they meet again.]
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Date: 2019-04-24 04:20 am (UTC)...However, [he adds with a nod,] We should only meet when you feel you are up to working- it will be no good if you are too tired, or feel underprepared-
[He pauses, as if realizing a problem with that statement-]
Rather, more underprepared than you feel is typical. [Since. Toki seems to Always feel he isn't capable.] Regardless...you have my number, correct? Simply message me when you wish to meet- if you like, you can also message ideas, so that I add input that way!
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Date: 2019-04-24 04:32 am (UTC)[No, his problems for the BBC week include mental breakdowns, trying to rip his own eye out, getting bitten by a vampire, and potential repercussions for breaking into Valvatorez's office and/or assaulting a camera crew. He will not make any arrangements to meet that week, nor likely contact Gongenzaka at all. Things just happen sometimes.]
Uh, I don't, but it's on the network and Yuya has it! I'll text you mine because I have a new phone!
[Which he will also lose during the BBC invasion, and who knows if it gets recovered?]
We've got this~!
[He waves and leaves the room.]
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Date: 2019-04-24 04:37 am (UTC)Toki can't you get a pass on the assignment that's a lot of Things happening,] Oh, a new phone?
Well, I shall await your contact then! Best of luck! [he adds, waving as Toki leaves.
...
At least they're friends now, he thinks.]